For as long as I can remember, I've put a caveat on all the dreams I've dared to utter. Things like: I'll write a book when I'm older and wiser(or when I have more time, more money, or higher self-esteem, etc.).
In more recent years, I've started to add the phrase "I can't because..." I can't sing because I don't know how. I can't travel to Germany because I'm nervous about going alone. I can't knit because I'm not crafty.
If any dream should make it through these filters, I feel compelled to tack on "someday". I'll live in England someday. Someday, I'll try to play the guitar again. Seemingly, I'll tell myself anything to keep myself from doing the things that I want to do. This is insanity.
The truth of the matter is that a lot of the things I want to do terrify me. They carry a certain inherent level risk or, worse, they introduce the possibility of failure.
I am turning 30 later this year and I must start moving forward. I must start doing some of these things now, or else I may never do any of them. As it turns out, I fear becoming stuck more than I fear taking risks. Someday has to turn up eventually and today is just as good as any other day.
Does this sound familiar to anyone else?
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